JOURNEY OF A LIFETIME
by Patricia Caswell
'I was on fire with love Divine'
Divine Love may tap you on the shoulder any time, any place, anywhere
When I reached the age of 50, I thought I was well on the way with my spiritual development. My journey up to that point had led me to search through Christianity and other world religions to find the truth that I suspected maybe hidden within. I did not find it. I devoured New Age therapies, channellings and healing and began to understand my inner self . I attended many courses, gave workshops and became a therapist myself. Whilst researching sound healing on a retreat in Cornwall, the most unexpected and astounding event happened to me. This retreat involved some deep processing into inner realms of myself and it was at this point, that a very loving and beautiful Being who radiated light and simplicity stood beside me on an inner level conveying these words to me
"you are loved and you have always been loved".
How could this happen to me for at the time of this experience I was lying on the sand on a busy beach. Yet, I knew He was there and I heard within what He said. I knew He was dressed in white and was as real to me on an inner level as people were on the physical outer level. I felt so blessed to receive His love, I was enraptured and much time went by unnoticed by myself. After a while, He faded away and I became aware of my surroundings again. Nothing that I had explored or experienced prior to this prepared me for the great spiritual beauty that enfolded me. No amount of 'talk', 'reading' or 'channelling' or experience of any kind could come anywhere near it. Human love may at times touch the outer edge of it, but this was unconditional Divine love. I was so amazed to find that such love existed and knew that this is what I had been searching for all those long years.
Even the above experience was small when compared to the next one that awaited me. During the night after my first experience of Divine love, I was awakened from slumber by that same beautiful Being who seemed to look down upon me from above and that same feeling of love overcame me, I was caught up in it and enchanted as His lovely voice spoke to me again saying that I needed to go on a journey to the East, to Kashmir in India. I would be guided and led by Him and should trust Him. Again, He faded and I returned to sleep. In the morning, I wondered if this was all real, and started to think about Kashmir, I had no idea where it was! As I thought about it, His voice came to me again, and He gently indicated that I should look in the morning paper. I did, and there was a double page article on Kashmir. Pic. This did not make good reading, as it went into great detail about this war torn state. I wanted to forget about it, but the experience of Divine love and my need of it, would not allow me to do this. When I returned home, many times I found this beautiful One at my side giving advice and urging me to book the journey. He gave me a vision of the most important place to visit on this journey. (photo below)
I felt as though I were being challenged but His love was so great that I knew He would look after me and started to make some bookings. No one would insure me, travel agents were not taking visitors to Kashmir as it was too dangerous, but, I found one with a base in New Delhi who would allow me to travel to Kashmir, if they considered it safe upon my arrival in India, otherwise they would have an alternative itinerary ready for me. I booked.
I still had no name for this radiant inner One and it didn't occur to me that I should have one. But, about 6 weeks before I was due to travel, a couple came to my door who wished to stay bed and breakfast. I invited them in and they were going to India. Their destination was the pilgrim centre of Avatar Meher Baba whom I had never heard of. We talked about India and they showed me a picture of the tomb shrine of Meher Baba (1896 - 1969) and I immediately recognized it as I had been given a vision of it and told that it was the most important place for me to visit! I was shown a picture of the Master and there was my beautiful inner One.
How perfectly He led me by the hand giving me inner visions and information and then confirming it on an outer level so that I was left in no doubt at all as to the reality of my inner experiences.
I traveled to Kashmir, it was deemed safe on my arrival, and I stayed on a houseboat, quite alone, with no other westerners in sight. I was well looked after and taken on picnics and wonderful excursions but, I could hear the gunshots over the water and was only allowed to visit 'safe areas'. Srinegar itself was under curfew. More important than this outer scene was the inner awakening taking place within myself.
Meher Baba started to awaken me to Divine Love. I was on fire with love greater than anything I had ever experienced before. It poured into my being and I was instantly changed and charged with a high frequency of spiritual energy for myself and my future work with Him.
I liken this to having a strong and powerful inner light switched on. When I was in Kashmir, I was detached from my normal life, I could sense myself without any ties or roles and could just be present in every moment. My inner self became much more expansive, real and supercharged with Divine love. I rested and trusted. I felt so loved by the Master. I had read nothing about His advent and apart from 1 picture and directions to His pilgrim centre had no other information about Him. Yet, I was delighted to know that He had lived, that He knew what it is like to be human, and a wonderful journey of 'getting to know Him' lay before me.
I visited many places in India on this journey and His love continued to pour into me . I felt loved, protected and safe, yet I was completely alone knowing no-one except an Indian travel agent. I traveled to the sacred tomb/shrine of Avatar Meher Baba and found such indescribably simple beauty and love. I knew my search for God was over, for here I found such astounding sweetness, purity truth and love. It has taken years for me to read and learn about His Advent as a Christ conscious master working for the upliftment of mankind. On His tomb are the words
'I come not to teach but to awaken'.
I knew that I had been truly awakened to His divine love within. No words from anyone except Himself, no reading of any books, no intermediary of any kind, just direct awakening.
The journey that I had embarked upon, was only the first phase of a tremendous change and upheaval on every level of myself. He opened so many doors within, to show me as many truths about myself and life as I could assimilate. A huge cleansing process was under way, as new concepts and true knowledge were born within me.
My journey with Meher Baba has embraced the Divine Feminine and I have been gifted with an aspect of this within myself.
I have been given an understanding and knowledge of the Divine Feminine and I have learnt that it is not attached to any one person but is simply the Divine One being present within a feminine form. The Divine is the same whether it is in a male or female form. The one who embodies it in its fullness is the feminine counterpart to a Christ conscious Master. Then, a divine romance, showing spiritual love at its height takes place between them. This is the love of Mary for Jesus, Rada for Krishna, and Sita for Ram and Mehera for Meher Baba. The Divine Feminine always points the way to God and love for God. She attempts to bring God into everything that she does. She is a sure guide and intuition is her tool.
My present work is to assist those who are ready and wish to access the Divine Feminine within themselves.
To do my work I have been gifted with a set of essences created in india from the flowers, trees and bushes surrounding the holy tomb shrine of Avatar Meher Baba.
Light Spirit Essences are charged with the spiritual atmosphere of this unique and powerful place. They address our needs at this time for spiritual growth by providing a pathway or route from the lower self to the higher self.
Light Spirit Essences are part of my work of awakening the True Self, Higher Self or Soul in those who come to me. They are tools to help expand our vision of ourselves and the world that we live in. They are catalysts for change. They are powerful, strong and quick acting. Each essence has a unique Presence within it and it is this Presence that calls for change within the self. The essences give greater alignment to truth, love, peace and harmony by sweeping away aspects of the human psyche that are clouding true insight and knowledge. They are soul essences and will clear a pathway from the personal self through to the soul where truth, love, honesty, peace and harmony resides.
Remember - flower essences do not work all the time for everybody, nor are they a complete or exclusive system of healing for the emotions. They should not be used instead of properly qualified medical or health practitioner advice. Always get an orthodox medical diagnosis, particularly to exclude unsuspected and undiagnosed important illness, and as part of your partnership with health practitioners on your journey of health.